My little one


When I hear the sounds of laughter
I can see your tiny cheeks
The corners of your lips pulling ever so slightly to the sky.
I will forever hear your giggles, echoing in my mind.
While your eyes rolled up and down with the joy you felt inside.
You loved the world so deeply, I could never understand
How one so small and frail
could love bigger than any in the land
The dimples in you knuckles were the sweetest things to trace
as we snuggled you all day and night
while trying to keep up the pace.
Life's race got the best of us
But we know you'll be close by
as we try our best to understand and ask ourselves but why?
We loved you as best as we knew how
We watched you grow
and felt the woe as we knew our time would end
But through the grief I find relief to know that you are in God's hand.
God had a better plan although we may not understand
God will give you all the love that we couldn't give just yet.
He knows your truest hopes, and your dreams they will come true
While God is watching over you.

written by Erinn Noble
for my Esben January 2024



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